You can’t always get what you want, but you will always get what you have. But if you try sometime you’ll find that you can find a way to want what you have. And want not in a pretend way, a look for the silver lining way, or a settling for it way. But a real way. A way that says this is what I have, and I’m going to do what it takes to actually want what I have.
I know I’m kind of talking in circles here, but that is exactly what our current reality has felt like. A very circuitous route to the prize upon which we’ve set our eyes: a full recovery and renewed strength for my geologist after his open-heart surgery. It’s been one set back after another, taking us back to new-but-familiar starting lines, and every time we have a choice: Wish it were different, or wrap our arms around what we have and go from there. Wishing it were different never made it so. But it might be the first step in knowing what the next step is. Kind of like a dog does. Turning around and around and around until they find the exact right spot to settle into the spot they’re in.
There I go, talking in circles again, but just like that dog, we gotta keep turning what we have around and around and around in our heads until we find our way to the exact right spot to settle into the spot we’re in. From that place, that settling into where we are with what we have, we can begin to turn it into what we want by being who we want to be no matter what. Which is all we’ve really had in the first place.
I know. More circles. I’m not talking about settling for whatever comes our way, giving in, or giving up. But choosing to be who we want to be with what we have.
It’s as simple as that and as hard as it gets.
So let’s look at what we have, and be who we want to be with what we have, which is probably what we really wanted in the first place. Because it’s the only thing we really ever have.
I’d keep going.
But I’m kinda dizzy.
